I've spoken often about how my writing is typically overly emotional. When I look back at my journal, or even this blog, I am immediately stricken with "red face" and my embarrassment usually leads to eyebrow raises and internal scoffing...sometimes even name calling...I can be vicious internally!
I wish I could strike a compromise between my writing and my verbalizing. I often find myself with writers block of the mouth - difficulty in describing emotions. There have been times in the past when I wanted to blurt out, "I love you," but couldn't. I couldn't summon up the strength. Yet I could create a ten-page poem dedicated to the ignorant individual within minutes of arriving home.
I haven't grown up. I'm still that young child passing notes to the cute schoolgirl nearby. Or even the brat pulling on the pigtails of his crush. It's less endearing when you're 31.
I can't really explain where my fear of verbalizing my emotions comes from but I wish my writing would offer up some encouragement.
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