REMEMBER THE ALAMO

I haven't been posting as much as normal because I'm working on a business venture that I hope will bring in some cash so I can continue writing some more.

I'm in a bit of a funk today. A girl I had a crush on informed me this morning that she hooked up with some guy last night and they were going on a date tonight. She knows how I feel about her but I don't think she is attracted to me in any way outside of friendship (obviously!). So it goes. I knew that the odds of us ever trying to date was extremely slim but I still hoped. I suppose if there is any good to come from this it's that I can move forward now with certainty. Still, it hurts. But it isn't the first time I've had a pain in the heart and it won't be the last.

I try to remember all the people I've met through volunteering that have such huge obstacles to overcome in their lives and how puny my little "problem" is. That always helps put things in perspective. It also makes me feel foolish for being so depressed over a woman not liking me. The other thing I need to remind myself is that I can't MAKE someone like me. I can't FORCE myself to be attractive to someone. It's too bad though! I wish I had a little love potion I could spill into a drink and remedy my loneliness. Maybe that's the business venture I should look into...how much money do you think I could make if I could create a love potion?

Okay, I'm done with my self pity...for the day at least. Tomorrow is a new day...