OH GOODY, I'M DESTINED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH A FEMALE HOTEL CLERK IN CALIFORNIA.

Once again I'm going to refer to the personality test I posted last week. One of the descriptions of my personality type is that I "live in a world of hidden meanings." This couldn't be more true. There are two ways that this statement works for me. 1) In regards to people - I'll listen to something someone says or see something they do and find some hidden greater meaning in it. And 2) Events, often small, in my everyday life that could be considered coincidental. I'll talk about number 2 today.

Sometimes something happens to me and I get completely shaken by it. As if it was meant to happen to me and means something that I must figure out. Most of the time I can't connect it to anything and almost ALL of the time the event that occurs is rather small. Something that I think others wouldn't think twice about or just chalk up to coincidence.

For example, this morning I was laying in bed and I started thinking about what I was going to write about on this blog. I have been flirting with the idea of not posting song lyrics anymore because I'm not sure anyone cares about them. So I thought to myself, who are some great bands that I haven't used any lyrics from yet? And I thought of the Eagles. In particular the song Desperado popped into my head. In any case, I fell back to sleep. When I woke up a half hour later I turned on the radio on my alarm clock and Hotel California by the Eagles began to play. It freaked me out. I started wondering what this could mean for me? Of course I understand it could mean nothing. But whenever something like this happens I always take the side of it having some meaning for me. I thought about the Eagles, turned on the radio and the Eagles were playing. Of course I thought about Desperado and they gave me Hotel California. Hmmm, what does THAT mean?

This type of thing happens to me a lot. Not just with music but all kinds of things. Coincidence, does it exist?

Several years ago I attended a play my cousin was directing off-off Broadway here in NYC. One of the important aspects of the play was that it centered around a recurring time - 1:11. Since that time virtually EVERY day I look at the clock at either 11:11 or 1:11. Sometimes I see both times in a day.

This example leads me to believe that I subconsciously make myself look at the clock at these exact times each day because I am subconsciously LOOKING for hidden meanings. Could all these things that happen occasionally be attributed to the "power of the mind?" If so, could I really have an impact on what song plays on the radio? Or is that example coincidence while others are somehow enacted through my subconscious? I know these are only two examples but I don't want to bore you with a million examples - which I could easily provide. Especially if I started talking about the act of writing (which I think would play into the subconscious created theory).

So my hidden meanings - do they mean anything? Do I create them myself? Is it simply coincidence? Is it all of the above?

Whatever the answer I suppose it makes my life a little more interesting. And whatever the answer I don't suppose it will help me to stop obsessing over finding the "hidden meaning."